everyone

i expected april to be the busiest month but i didnt expect it to be that much harder to handle. its not that bad really but when you have more than one major event to handle and prepare for, you cant help being unstable. i guess it sucks all the more when everyone is like so diverted intstead of being in it together. not that its anybody's fault either. im guilty too. everyone's worried. everyone. its hard when everyone starts being oblivious about one another and end up being so self-absorbed. unintentionally of course. again im guilty too. but nobody's offering to help either. not so much in doing work but more like reminding one another about what really matters. so in conclusion, its either you're so worried that you cant think straight, or you're not worried and you're trying to avoid anything that might worry you. cant blame anyone for that can we? it would be so so helpful if people can just show me that they've got my back and that whatever team i'm working with, it's about working as a team and not about impressing anyone or trying to satisfy individual comforts. believe me when i say im trying to do that myself and its not easy. but i would appreaciate the effort so much. at the end of the day, i still love what i do. either way, the Mighty One has my back and im gonna count on that. a lot.