As the title says, here i am ONE YEAR LATER to update my blog, but you know what, it felt so so strange to read back all my previous posts. :/ Some were good to read, in the sense that i was able to look back at myself(which seemed like a totally different person) but on another note it was really uncomfortable to read some parts which ended being a bunch of lies, so ya, i did some 'editting' to the blog. ;)
Here's a really funny thing, why do i always get the urge to 'luahkan perasaan' every time i have important exams coming up?? LOL. But seriously though, the last time i blogged was SPM season and now i have finals coming up for my Foundation in Engineering. Yes peeps, got in Nottingham and i'm loving it! One of the proudest and best decisions in my life. Who knew I'd be this happy after all that massive confusion and almost giving up on what i wanna do and who i wanna be.
Another chapter of my life has taken a dramatic turn too, its 'him'. Well we called it quits about 10 months ago. The whole 'being in love with your best friend' thing ended up being a total mess. Like expected, EVERYTHING changed when he came home, but to both our disappointment, it changed for the worse. I wasn't the only one who felt it, Nomee(the only one who hadn't left for Uni or College at that time) saw me 'deteriorating'. Then again, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? And here's my testimony of strength that with God's help I've learned to understand that everything happens for a reason and I've turned over a new leaf.
As a result, a MUCH MUCH BETTER chapter has opened, no i am not seeing anyone new, but i am having higher quality relationships in my life now. I'm at peace with him and his family is still super nice to me(really like that :D). To sum things up, I've learned the most important lesson i needed at the right time, just before Uni life, DON'T COMMIT WHEN YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T, when you know it's too much, when you know it's not right.
God was greater than all my mistakes and confusions. My God is a God of forgiveness, a God of love, He's the one planning my life and all its ups and downs, I willing accept. We all should. Eventually, we all go, "Oh now i know why that happened! If it wasn't for that incident, I wouldn't be this happy now!".
God bless and have an AWESOME POSSUM DAY!! :D
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